kelley long

tonite, i exceptionally miss Baoyi. In many people’s eye. Baoyi is just my fren. But inside me, Baoyi is a gal tat i admire most. Dunno why, i just like her veri much. I know her for so long, but i seldom disagree with her except once. I like her taste, her style, her idea, her creativity,her independent, her character…

I dunno whether she got changed onot by now. But she is a fren that i dun wish to lost. My mind full with flashback tonite, formis as the background. Lots of memory come bck to me. I am proud to have you as my fren. A mirror, to remind me of my mistake. A competitor, to give me courage. I know I can never compete you. But it’s fine. You are always better than me and it’s true.

tonite, i do miss her more than anyone else.

tonite, i do miss the moment we spend together.

why there’s blog writer?

I dunno the reason why others write blog. I write blog cus i wan to express my feeling and share my happiness and sadness. I dunno whether anyone will read this blog and i also dun care. I write blog when i feel like i wanna write it. Not becus of i need to write it. That’s why i enjoy write blog.

Recently, i had recover from my sickness. I think i had changed alot. No matter mentally or physically. I m no longer motivated to work. Everyday i had to waste alot of time and energy to make myself wake up. I no longer know wat is my interest. Sing k ? watch movie? shopping? go pub? maybe i had did all this too frequent until i no longer appreciate all this greatest moment.

Maybe some of my fren will notice, when i am single, i am Ms OK. Whatever u plan, i will say ok. As long as i dun hav date at tat moment. There’s lot of fun when being single. No responsibility and reward with lots of care from lots of guy. But I am still lonely. Why? Cus I cant own this kind of care forever. It’s not belongs to me. I m just lend it from someone else and need to pay bck one day.

Look back to the pass, guys tat go after me. They already hav their own pair of key. Their love to me can onli find in memory. Wishes from me is full with empty.

Maybe there has been a long time I din write, I cant see connection in my writing recently. Huh, but never mind. And who will care. No one is going to grade my writing.. isn’t it…??

Tonight, I chat with palim, a person that i seldom chat with..

Dunno starting from when, I started bore with the chatting tools.. Everytime I open my Yahoo Messenger and MSN.. although there is lots of contacts in my contact list, but i can hardly chat more than 15 min with any of my fren.. I had oledi lack of topic to chat.. or becus i really lack of fren..

but today I learned alot from this chatting tool. Learned about life that I never dream of. I always ask myself, why human want to stay in this world? Just because we need to repeat and repeat wat our father, grandfather, grand grand father did? study when we are young, hav our own career, build a family, grow up our child, make sure they do the same thing as us..then die.

It doesn’t mean that i dun angree with this kind of life. Just I wish to hav some excitment in my life. I wish to broaden my eye view. Experience different kind of life. I am very lucky to be born in my family. Everything is well prepared to me. But i really wish to have some kind of improvement in my life. I wish to be independent. I wish myself will never scare to be lonely. I wish there are my fren all around the world.

Thousand thanks to you and also the blogs. Cus of u, I see brightness. I see another road. I know there will be lots of obstacle i need to face. But i always believe that, there is no excitment if there is no obstacle. Human should never bore with our life. I already know my mistake.