kelley long

The one who love me most, I dun love him..

no special reason.. just because he expressed himself too early..

The one I love.. dun love me…

no special reason..just because I cant accompany

this all i can understand..because i can see the reason.. i am in the situation

but the one I love, and he also love me..also cant be together..

I just wander why.. may God can tell me..

can love blow away by wind just in a second..?

Today..my leg is pain, i know the sky is going to cry..

I am crying, but no one can feel the pain..

Hope everyone will pray for me.. wish me.. my wishes will come true..pls!!

Life is full of disappointment..                                                                        

When we expect something, we can’t get it, we are disappointed..

When someone do something wrong, we are disappointed..

When God doesn’t bless us, we are disappointed..

I hope that human can have my third eye in our heart, so that we can look into people heart..

I hope that we can know what other people are thinking.. so that we won’t get cheated, so that no people will have secret, so that there are no misunderstanding, so that it’s fair to everybody.. I hate the world for being unfair, but who will care.. everybody will only care for their own business.. they won’t care you are die or alive.. disappointed..

I am writing this blog.. with the moon beside me..Finally i saw her.. wat a big surprise for me.. maybe she heard my word.. she wanna fulfill my dream.. and the dream of my love one..!!

This pretty lovely moon, like a hole in the sky, like a light brighten the night.. I look out from the window of my room, she is just like very near to me.. I see a beautiful picture of the nite..which i can only find in people’s drawing, it look so familiar to me.. do i draw such a picture before.? I don’t know.. and i don’t care.. I just wanna enjoy the night.. I know this is a gift my greatest god give to me.. just like he give my love one to me.. i really appreciate it.. Thank you!!

In my memory, this is the first time i celebrate Moon Cake Festival not at my house. Still remember many many years ago, i will play candle and lantern outside of my house..with my brothers and cousins. I really miss the scene, with the noises of the child and the voices from the adult. There has been a long time i didn’t have gathering with my relatives. I miss them. But they have change. So, i no longer miss them. I only miss the pass.

Tonite, I pray for health, I pray for luck, i pray for study.. I dunno what is your wish. But i hope i can make your wish come true.. But tonite, the moon is hide shyly behind the cloud, she doesn’t wanna come out, she refuse to come out, is that means that she refuse to fulfill my dream.?

I am confuse? Once I very sure that i know wat is love.. but now.. i am confuse!! Love can be exchanged.. exchange for money, exchange for sex, exchange for accompany.. aren’t we selling our love?.. We love a person not because we really love them.. but we wanna get something from them.. just like doing business.. we sell our love for something we need..where is the fairy tale i once heard..about prince and princess who live happily together for each and everyday with their pure love..?..Pls tell me the definition of love!! I wanna be the princess..but who wanna be my prince..?

4 September 2005 4.55pm

Huh.. i aM LoSt..!!.. i aM alone on the road.. choosing the way to take.. choosing my own future.. i cAnt see the end for this two road.. the view, the scene, the environment of this two road..keep on changing.. once..i see beautiful future..but.. it only occur for a while..is it illusion..?.. or it’s only my day dream.. maybe..tis is wat we call life.. we cant predict which road can bring us to the best future…unless..we choose a road.. face the obstacle along it..and walk to the end… Can u help me choose a road..??… Huh… no one can help…